Here we go again

So here we go again.
The thing I mentioned, about taking people's pain on my shoulders. I really want that ! I am so distraught with people's suffering and pain. Please just let me take it away.
I know I can't be happy, but everyone else should be able to be.

My love life is non-existent. All my friends are coupling and stuff, however I am stuck in a relationshipless rut. The last few nights I have had dreams about it. I never see the guy's face but he is there. I have narrowed this down to a few possibilities: one, I am crazy; two, my subconsciousness is projecting my inner fears of never finding someone; and three, God is telling me that I will find that someone, even though I can't see him...he's out there. I like to think that I am crazy.

I want this feeling of not moving to stop. I want this world to see me, accept me and understand me. I want to be happy or see no one else suffer.

Well there you go...I am still me, this is my life, hope you weren't too bored.