I Don't Know

If anyone reads this (which I have my doubts), I just want to die. I recently have had not the best .news. I feel like I am so alone now. I can't talk about it and every time I think about I become more depressed. I cannot understand why this is happening to me. I really think that I cannot handle this alone...why do I have to be alone? I really wish I could be numb for this.